JR by William Gaddis

JR is the third Gaddis novel I’ve read, following The Recognitions (which I recently re-read with great delight) and Carpenter’s Gothic.

It took me nearly 4 months to read JR, but this was largely by design. I read multiple books at a time and decided back in the summer to limit myself to 10 pages a day of this behemoth, and there were many days where I managed only 5 pages per day.

It’s not an easy book. There are no chapter breaks, and the novel is about 99% dialogue (the last novel I remember reading which was virtually all dialogue was The Awkward Age by Henry James). Characters speak often without any identifying information other than what they are saying–it takes some time and effort to shake out who exactly the characters are and how they relate to one another, and sometimes it requires close analysis to understand who is speaking and to whom. Almost every bit of dialogue is interrupted by interpolations from other characters, or phone calls, or delivery drivers. Nothing internal about the characters is shared, simply their dialogue.

But the difficulties of JR are worth it. I laughed out loud repeatedly. Gaddis produced one of the great satires of American style capitalism, and managed it BEFORE American capitalism truly went off the rails and into the even more unimaginable excess and corruption we see now.

There are only a few settings in the book. One is the genteel house of an upper-crust family whose business is falling apart and being raided by their own attorney. Another is the principal’s office at a city elementary school, where corporations have been given free reign to test out closed-circuit TV and pro-business curricula. There is a bizarre small studio apartment where the tub and sink faucets are broken stuffed to the rafters with the detritous of corporate schemes and adverts which becomes the nerve center for a global corporate entity run by an 11-year old boy. There is the administrative office of the previously mentioned family business where the secretaries film pornographic videos off-hours. In every setting commerce and the concerns of big business and Wall Street rudely and repeatedly interrupt everything. Gaddis portrays the impossibility of having true human interactions in a system devoted to greed and the continual grasping after unnecessary objects. And the artist? There are several artists in the novel, including writers and painters and one very important composer. All of them struggle to survive in a system which has no values or meaning beyond acquisition and consumption.

The elites in predatory capitalism are exposed and lampooned repeatedly for their disgusting racism, their unwarranted sense of class superiority, their interference in other countries and in politics to maximize their own profits regardless of the cost to humans or the environment. Everything is commodified, turned into a packaged convenience and thence to trash which litters and chokes a rapidly burning down global order.

JR is a sixth grade boy who has become interested in the business world and builds a global empire despite his sheer bumbling incompetence. He manages it with determined chutzpah and lots of mail-order freebies. JR could be any number of “genius” billionaires currently ruining Earth who imagine themselves examples of superior evolution, when in fact they were born lucky and have a moral capacity beneath that of a sea slug.

Unlike the other Gaddis novels I’ve read and re-read and am planning to re-read, I’ll probably not read JR again. I can simply watch world events play out to see this plot in action.

Dreamwork

This morning I had a vivid work anxiety dream about a profession I left nearly four years ago. In the dream I was a high school teacher working at a new school in a complicated building–it’s a dream setting I’ve been in several times and in which I’ve had similar experiences over the years. Despite leaving teaching completely I still have these sorts of dreams regularly. Class has started, I’m unable to find the lounge where my laptop and schedule and keys are, the corridors are confusing. When I finally find my classroom the students are unsure about the project they’ve been assigned, there are administrators in the room asking questions, the technology is not functioning. It’s type of dream I’ve had since I was a student; can’t find my locker, the locker combination doesn’t work when I do find it, I don’t know where my classroom is and I’m late. Other variations? Trying to board a flight but my ticket/passport/luggage is missing.

There’s a bunch of science about dreams being the brain’s way of processing the days’ events into memories. My dreams are almost NEVER related to daily events, however. They’ve always felt weighty and full of almost-realized profundity. Even basic anxiety dreams are trying to tell me something about myself.

Inner Work by Robert A Johnson is a practial guide to approaching and interacting with dreams and dream materials. Johnson is a Jungian and they are the analytic school I find most interesting when I think about my dreams. As a young teen I often had dreams where different selves would argue, different personalities with completely different wants and points of view. And I’d wake up with their dialogues and discussions still ringing in my head. At times the voices were like a mutiny and I genuinely wondered if I were going mad.

I first read a lot of Freud, and finding his work very interesting but unsatisfactory I moved on to Jung and his school. Jung’s assertion that there are completely autonomous elements of the Unconscious which need to be approached and integrated felt right and made logical sense given the content of many dreams, which I carefully recorded in journals over the decades.

So why would I have an increase in teacher anxiety dreams AFTER leaving teaching? Because teaching, as onerous as I found the job, pushed me to the maximum in many ways. I was by necessity at my creative, innovative, and intellectual peak. I had to navigate so many relationships and so many roles, and was for over 20 years completely outside my comfort zone. Every time I thought “I’m getting the hang of this” some new leadership role or challenging group of students or suddenly having to teach online during COVID would happen. Leaving teaching and opening a small business in France has of course been challenging and rewarding, but I am not being pushed in the same ways. There is some part of my unconscious which is dis-satisfied with this state of affairs and is trying to force me to feed its needs for intellectual and creative rigor. Gardening, lumberjacking, speaking French, and running a tourist lodging business are apparently not enough!

I’m considering using Johnson’s method for a bit to see if I can pin down what is going on internally. He’s actually got two methods in the book–one for interpreting and doing dream work, and another for using Jung’s Active Imagination.

Another feature of my dreams is that I often am left upon waking with a song stuck in my head on repeat for days on end. I’ll wake from a dream hearing the song and then can’t shake it. Recently it’s been “Vienna” by Billy Joel. I decided to look up the lyrics, which I’d never really thought about:

Slow down, you crazy child
You’re so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you’re so smart
Tell me why are you still so afraid? Mm
Where’s the fire, what’s the hurry about?
You’d better cool it off before you burn it out
You’ve got so much to do
And only so many hours in a day, hey

[Chorus]
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even get halfway through, ooh
When will you realize Vienna waits for you?

I’ve noticed of late a tendency to always be thinking of the things I need to get done instead of just doing what I’m doing. I’ll be petting one of our animals and thinking “oh shit I have to finish splitting the firewood” or “that pipe in the Loft apartment is not going to replace itself” or “am I ever going to finish reading that William Gaddis novel?”

My unconscious is sending me this song on repeat for a reason. I don’t know that I ever really heard the lyrics outside of the chorus until now. So part of the dream is telling me I need a more intellectual, more creative outlet, while another part is telling me to relax:

Too bad, but it’s the life you lead
You’re so ahead of yourself, that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you’re wrong
You know you can’t always see when you’re right
You’re right

Take a chill pill, man. You’re doing fine!