Recurrent Dreams

I don’t simply have recurring dreams in the typical sense that narratives and plot events return again and again. I have rather dreams which happen in the same settings over and over. These settings change and evolve mysteriously over decades, and have recurring characters as well as themes.

Some Examples

A cove at an ocean beach. Was initially undeveloped, then had a house, then a small development. Most recently there was some sort of detention camp there.

An undiscovered wing of my childhood home. It’s impossibly large and far older and more mysterious, and is accessed through different closet or cabinet doors, or via the basement, of the “real” home.

An urban neighborhood of Victorian rowhomes with bars and frequented houses and alleys. The different bars often have the same regulars but sometimes I go to one and not the others, or to all in one dream. Often after the bars I retire to one of the friend’s houses. In these dreams, some friends from the real world arrive, but most of the characters are recurring dream characters, but the dreams are never the same. The bars and houses often change decor and remodel just as in real life, but remain recognizable. The regular customers often greet me as though I’ve been away for a long time.

The bookshop I worked in for 7 years in my 20s. I regularly re-visit it in dreams, and parts of it are closed off or have been reopened. Sometimes it is thriving and others near decrepit. The employees there are dream employees, never the actual colleagues I worked with. The employees have heard about me and my tenure in this place, or knew someone who worked for me or with me ‘back in the day.’

Schools and classrooms from a variety of teaching positions I’ve held. Often the school is unfamiliar from the real world but the classroom is mine, or vice-versa. These schools maintain their structure but alterations are made each time I visit.

Unconscious to Conscious

Often, I’ll have dreams in these settings for years, and life goes on in these dreams just as life goes on in real life. But many times I don’t remember these dreams or these settings when awake until one sudden vivid dream renders it all conscious, and then I’ll wake and have powerful memories of multiple dreams in this location going back many years. I’ll even note that certain characters in the settings have evolved over time, having matured, or aged, or been sick and healed, etc.

“Deep” Dream Settings

Sometimes my dreams seem to happen concurrently and at different settings at different depths. I used to dream regularly of a world that was a sketch of a place, where everything was black except for silver lines denoting walls and roofs and trees, where the characters were simply lights or silvery profiles. I always knew I had “gone deep” when I dreamt in this setting. But at the same time, a different component of my self would be experiencing a different dream, like a typical work anxiety dream.

The same feeling is associated with strange “temple” dreams I’ve had, situated in stone rooms with baths featuring Egyptian tiles. In such dreams I often found gems or minerals or plants emerging from my skin. These dreams are powerful and come from a place beyond the limits of my own experience in this lifetime.

I’ve occasionally dreamt of a room where several people who’ve been important comrades in this life voyage and I are seated and laughing–and in this dream I know we are all just finished one existence and are preparing/selecting our roles in the next existence. We are joking about who played what role and the decisions they made and their karmic consequences for that individual and the whole group next time round.

Recording Dreams

After a long hiatus, I’ve begun to dream vividly again, and have begun recording them in depth when I can recall them sufficiently. I always feel more alive and more creative and healthy when I have powerful and mysterious dreams. Grateful they are returning.

Jobless

It’s been a bit more than 10 months since we arrived in France. We quit our jobs and used 85% of our savings to buy an old mill in a small village in the Correze. We are “jobless,” in the sense that we’ve dropped out of the system which requires you to show up at a place of employment and subject yourself to the whims of an employer for huge swaths of your life.

But we are hardly “not working.” Today, for example, I weed whacked for two hours, I cut down scrub brush and overgrown ivy and dead trees for two hours, I prepared two rental apartments for overnight guests and greeted them and toured them around (in French). My wife and I carted barrows full of gravel down from the street level at our property to the garden where we intend to set up a glamping tent.

Tomorrow we will have to clean the apartments and do laundry and prep them for the next guests. We don’t make anywhere near the money we used to make when we had salaries–but we make enough. We own our property free and clear. We have solar panels. We have a basic and simple life, and I’m starting a vegetable garden. The goal is to have a business sufficient to live a simple and comfortable life without all the rat race BS we faced for decades in the USA. And 10 months in, we are doing so.

Whatever your dream is–whatever it is that you wish you could do, or hope to do someday–do it NOW. Stop buying into the culture that you must rent yourself to a corporation in order to be successful and happy. Get out of that mindset. It’s not easy. The visa renewal process and French taxes are driving me crazy! But–you can live by a river in an old mill in France (or wherever you want) for a fraction of the price of a condo in DC or NY or Vegas. Do it now!

We have two families of four staying over tonight. They had luck with the weather and spent their first few hours here in the garden exploring. They told me how cool our place was and they took many photos of our building and the river, and their kids ran around kicking a soccer ball and having a blast. That is all I need. I don’t need a big salary and retirement. I don’t need 65 hour work weeks and stress.